This email from “Emmanuel” is without a doubt the most poignant message I’ve ever received from a reader.
With her permission, I share Emmanuel’s email with readers of this blog, including many (like me) who’ve dealt with a mental disorder in ourselves or a family member, so she might feel her struggle is being witnessed by others who care.
And, if you are so inclined, I ask that you keep Emmanuel in your thoughts and prayers this holiday season — as I will.
Life says for me to let you know this, I am schizophrenic and so am I.
I acquired schizophrenia in the first three months of my infancy. My mother got mentally ill shortly after I was born.
The illness had been there in the family tree for generations. My grandmother and her sister had suffered some form of schizophrenia.
My name is Emmanuel, I am suffering from paranoid schizophrenia. The spirit says “many are called but few are chosen”, because of the circumstances and conditions of their upbringing.
If you talk to God you pray,but if God is talking to you its schizophrenia.
There is a lot of mental cases out there, a lot of them are schizophrenic. They need guidance and care.
The process of schizophrenia is invariably uphill struggle often lifelong duration,often incurable.
Schizophrenia cannot be understood without understanding despair.
We are not only the victims of this paranoia,we are also its police force of it.
My dearest sister,I need to join forces with you,to help heal the world in any way we can.
Through grace we helped not to stumble and through grace we are accepted,what more can we ask for.
I am looking forward for you response.
Yours in divine order